Parenting Woes

I am becoming less and less interested in blogging.  I really don't have alot of people that are that interested in whats going on in my life or otherwise so i think i may make this blog private so i can just journal when i have the time. The past six months really have been overwhelming emotionally, and physically.  Parenting has become a reall struggle as my children are growing up faster than i think i know how to deal with.  I have had to put them in counseling.  It has been a real big eye opener.  I always thought that i could be enough and that they could always feel like they can come to me for absolutely anything. It happens to not be the case.  I am feeling like a big fat zero.  My girls feel unsafe at thier school and want to be homeschooled and i feel so insecure of my own abilities to teach them basics and/or more that selfish me keeps telling them it will get better.  How do I expect them to navigate thier own storms if i can't even weather mine.  Middle school was hell for me. Will I find the courage and get over my insecurities so that they don't have to endure the things i went through but if i pull them out am i teaching them to give up and not weather thier storms in life.  I get so frustrated with the school system and i feel that my voice keeps falling on deaf ears no matter how loud i get.  I am tired of my children getting bullied because they are kind, and i don't want them to be violent with anyone but i wish they could find thier voice to put these bullies in thier place. With adolescence rearing its head i need to find myself some new parenting tools because the ones i have really aren't working anymore. Well for now thats all i have for the blogosphere.